Somebody noticed that if i were in a relationship, i would be the girl that says 'yes' and 'ok' most the times to the guy.
Most people would think im just the opposite.
What do you think?
The east line train back home during the after office hours today was so much more empty compared to the usual Mondays. Of course, not many would go home or head east this early on Valentine's Mon-day.
And that's a good relief, for i was so worried my bouquet of lilies would get crushed by the smelly bodies
It was such a lovely surprise, for i'm really not expecting it. My heart skipped so fast the moment i hung up the phone on my extension from the mail room informing me that i have a bouquet of flowers to be picked up. My mind was filled with question marks thinking hard who would have bought me flowers. I was still thinking if the mail room guy dialled the wrong extension and how embarrassing it would cause if they werent actually meant for me. (",)
When i saw the bouquet of lilies being brought out from the mail room, i wondered even more. Who would have known they were my favourite, and to the office. Until i read the card, i couldnt help but to keep smiling and thinking how silly this guy was. This surprise really caught me, and i didnt know how i should react to it.
I've never directly told him i love lilies, couldnt even remember if i even briefly mentioned and how did he even know my office address! Of course, google is a powerful tool, but the effort to even google it.... touched.
This may not be my first bouquet of lilies received, but definitely the first bouquet of flowers received on V'day!
To be honest, i have not celebrated V'day for a decade now. Its exactly 10 years since i last celebrated V'day.
I remembered 10 years ago when i was 14, SC and i were dating during this period. He played truant and met me after school. I bought him a bracelet and he got me a wallet and we went Bugis to walk around, took neoprints and... basically that's about it.
That was the last time i spent V'day with a guy i was in love with and ever since then, i hung out with my godbro on this day for about 2 years (i think) before i promised myself never to hang out on this day unless its with someone i love.
I remembered couple of years back in poly days, R asked me out on V'day and he merely mentioned "lets go catch this movie next Monday". Without knowing it was V'day i agreed. When the day got closer, i realised it was V'day and i immediately made up some excuses to postpone it. I think i was interested in him then, but V'day to me is not any ordinary day, and i should only spend it with someone im in love with. The movie date between me and R never happened. Guys, tsk. They give up this easily! No sincerity!
Time flies... 10 years have passed. Gosh, im so getting old.
When Jay and i were still together, i knew he would be busy on V'day to accompany me. It was our monthsary too, and in to prevent myself from being lonely, i flew to Perth on purpose to avoid staying in Sgp and get myself all emotional. We had a small arguement few nights before i was supposed to leave, only to know after i return a week later that he was free on V'day all along. What a waste, guess it was all fated, we were never meant to be valentines.
This year, i am home, all alone, with my dog. I cooked instant noodles with scallop and crab sticks for dinner and spent the night in front of the tv and computer. Not that im complaining, because... i have a bouquet of my favourite flowers staring back at me. =))))
Hope you, my readers (if there is even any left) had a great V'day!
what's happening to me?
Ive been feeling unwell for the longest time. The migraine's attacking me for so long, i bleed profusely whenever i brush my teeth and i choose to ignore everyone and close my doors at them.
I dont know what's happening anymore. I am not myself anymore. I am allowing my other self to ruin my sanity and make everyone around me hurt and depressed.
why is it so hard to even breathe?
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